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my first full day away from NTH

Mom Achievement Unlocked: survived a full day at work


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NTH is 5 1/2 months old and i got offered a day of work on a commercial.  i do makeup and one of my contacts asked if i was available, but it was a full day - 7am to 7pm on the call sheet. I hummed and hawed...do i really want to do this? can i afford not to do this? i called my husband and he said 'go for it, we can make it work.' so i asked mum to watch him, i am so lucky to have my mum around, and she was able to so all was settled.

i had to have my phone on silent on set (full disclosure: my phone is always on silent anyway) so mum would message me if she needed anything or had a question.  the nice thing was i would check my phone when i could, but i wasn't always thinking about it.  i had told a group of friends i wanted to be able to focus on the task at hand and not be constantly wondering/worrying about how NTH was doing and they said they'd pray for me.  and i actually had a wonderful day!

it was fun, no stress, and i was present and not worried at all....until i thought maybe i should be worried more? am i a bad parent? oh neurosis...


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i have another, slightly shorter, day scheduled this week and then nothing on the immediate horizon.  it's nice being home with him, but i want him to be used to, and happy to, spend time with other family and friends and i also don't want to get stuck in a "my way is the only way" of doing things, so having other people care for him forces me to loosen my grip on that tendency.  is he safe? is he happy? then that's what matters

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