Mom Achievement Unlocked

Mom Achievement Unlocked: 1st mother's day thoughts via GIPHY maybe it's because i got pregnant comparatively later in life than most others (at 33, gave birth at 34), maybe it's because i'm an enneagram 9, maybe it's because i'm secure in who i am, or maybe it's because i saw other mom's self-critical failure mentality and didn't want that nor think it was necessary, but i have no interest in doing the "right" thing or feeling like if i don't "do this" i'm a mess or my child will be. not to say i don't have self-doubt and stress and want to do right by my child and spouse and family as a whole, but i believe those feelings can co-exist with figuring things out and having grace for myself. to me this isn't a pass/fail, win/lose scenario. to be perfectly honest, early in my pregnancy i was reading articles on how to cope with change and one thing that really spoke to me was treat it like an experiment. ever

Mom Achievement Unlocked: letting go of my Christmas expectations ( almost ) aka, the six sighs of christmas 2018 having a NTH means most of your time is spent feeding, coaxing it to sleep, changing diapers, and doing laundry.  this "sleep when they sleep" garbage is nonsense, at least during daylight hours...but that's a whole other blog post.  that being said, when we get to Christmas, a time when we tend to have more social events, more food to cook, treats to bake, and decorating to do adding a NTH to the mix is a little bit stressful. you can plan to bake 3 types of sweets in one day, but your NTH might have other plans...and guess what? their schedule usually wins. *sigh* i had a plan to get family photos done with Santa. should be a relatively simple goal to achieve, right?  there was even a lovely Santa at a local Saturday market; it was the perfect opportunity.  i dressed NTH in a sweet little outfit which he did not spit up on (!) got me and hubby and our do